The phrase "than alive" is a grammatical error. It should be written as "than I am now."
Sentences with «than alive»
As of now, many of us are more dead than alive. (redeeminggod.com)
At the extreme, Michael Jackson, makes more dead than alive due to the royalties his estate makes from all the songs he produced in his career — an estimated $ 140 million in 2014 according to Forbes. (financialsamurai.com)
If any of us is better dead than alive for the state, it becomes our duty to be eliminated or to eliminate ourselves even before the state has to bother itself with that unpleasant necessity. (firstthings.com)